I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I could be doing so for the incorrect reason; as a means to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to talk about wasn’t yet clear in those days; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside. a course in miracles Don’t are interested troubling your brain, won’t you allow it to be?” This confused me as I really could not consider something that I’d stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I’d in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents’satisfaction, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.