I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
From the time I first became alert to the regal and awe-inspiring existence of God, I have enjoyed studying many wonderful spiritual performs just like the Bible (my beloved elements will be the Sermon on the Install and Psalms), the Bhagavad-Gita, the Upanishads, the Koran and the poetry of Kabir and Rumi. Not one of them come near to the wonder of a Course in Miracles. Reading it with an open mind and heart, your doubts and issues rinse away. You become alert to a marvelous love heavy within you – greater than what you realized before. The long run begins to appear so brilliant for you personally and your liked ones. You’re feeling love for everyone else including those you previously have tried to keep excluded. These activities are very effective and occasionally put you down balance a little, but it’s worthwhile: A Course in Wonders introduces you to a love so peaceful, so strong and so general – you’ll wonder how therefore most of the world’s religions, whose intention is supposedly an identical knowledge, got therefore down track.
I want to say here to any Christian who feels that his church’s teachings do not truly satisfy his hunger to learn a kind, merciful and loving Lord, but is fairly scared to see the Class as a result of others’ states it is inconsistent with “true” Christianity: Don’t worry! I have browse the gospels often and I assure you that a Program in Wonders is totally in keeping with Jesus’ teachings while he was on earth. Don’t concern the fanatical defenders of exclusionist dogma – these poor people think themselves to be the sole carriers of Jesus’ message, and the sole people worthy of his delights, while other will go to hell. A Course in Miracles reflects Jesus’ true meaning: unconditional passion for *all people*. While he was on the planet, Jesus said to judge a tree by its fruit. So give it a take to and see how a fruits that ripen in your lifetime taste. When they taste bad, you can reject A Program in Miracles. But when they taste as special as quarry do, and the millions of other correct seekers who have discovered A Course in Miracles to be nothing less than the usual beautiful prize, then congratulations – and may possibly your center often be abundantly filled up with calm, warm joy.